all i have to be

There are days when I look at a certain friend’s myspace and wander onto the myspaces of some of his friends because they have really great pictures and music. Some of them seem glamorous. I know that I’m only looking at photos. But being a girl that’s really into hair and make-up and good accessories my eye is drawn to such things. Then there are the times when I look at other knitter’s and sewer’s and crafter’s blogs and I feel intimidated and behind the class. I can talk myself into feeling like I’m not cool enough or talented enough. Yesterday I was kind of feeling that way. Then I remembered something. I remembered that I just need to be who God made me. I remembered that that is who I am suppose to be. And suddenly I felt alright. I felt at peace with myself and who I am while at the same time striving to be better. But the better version of me. Not of someone else. I often find that in this life a moment can best be summarized in a song by my childhood hero, Amy Grant .

When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head
And the thoughtful words of help and hope
Have all been nicely said
But I'm still hurting, wondering if I'll ever be the one
I think I am
I think I am.

Then you gently re-remind me
That You've made me from the first
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst.
And I realize the good in me
is only there because of who You are
who You are.

And all I ever have to be is what
You've made me
Any more or less would be a step out of Your plan
As you daily recreate me help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do what I can find
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be is what
You've made me